Life

As we struggle through the some times difficult roads of life. It can be hard to remember and to be grateful for our choice to take the first step on to that road. I sometimes try and think what it must have been like in the preexistence. I know that we were made aware of the pain, sorrow, and hardships that we were taking upon ourselves. What joys, what happiness must we have seen to make the pains of this mortal life worth it? I can only image the love me must have had for our heavenly father, for Jesus Christ, and for each other that we would choose to come unto mortality.
Life has a funny way of lifting you up only to seeming kick you in the groin. For the last few years my family and I have struggled. With both health and with money, and we have tried and tried to make our lives work to the best we can. As I look to the future I wonder what storm is heading our way. My lovely wife, who has been the bread winner of the family for so long, is now faced with the struggle I have endured for so many years. I understand the internal struggle that one goes through looking for a job. I wish her all of the love and support I can.
I have often thought of how I could have changes our lives. I could have sought help for my emotional problems; I could have gone to, and finished college. As well as many, many other things. All of these things would have changes our lives but whose to say if it would have been for the better. After all I should have been in class that day I met my wife. How empty my life would have been with out her. When I look at my girls faces I am reminded that I chose the road I am walking on. it’s walking on that road that made me who I am. To take one step on another path would change every thing about me. I am grateful for my trials even if I am not always happy about them.
We chose to come here. We chose to accept the trials that come with the road we took. If I found out the they only joy and happiness I was to find by making my choice was that I would meet my wife and have my kids, then I would do it again, again and again. in the last 11 years I have know more joy, more happiness, more of what it means to be a human being, and a man. Then in all of the years before.
I used to say that I lived in darkness. Devoid of warmth, love, and of happiness. Well if that was true then my wife and kids are as BLAZING SUNS. They have chased all Darkness out of my life.
Don’t live in fear of the challenges the lay ahead. For I know that though times seem tough and forboding. Our trials shape us and make us who we are. Take what ever comes your way and let it wash over you. Do not let it stand in your way.
I know that Jesus is the Christ, That GOD is our eternal father and that he loves all of his children. I know that the Book of Mormon is true. That we have been blessed to have a prophet in these latter days. I know that through god out eternal father all things are possible, if we have faith in him and love for him and a belief in oneself to be worthy of those blessings. And this is my testimony and I say it unto you in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

I know my writing is not the best I hope the meaning can be understood.
-Michael